To be honest, when I started releasing things last week, I was expecting God to replace those things with different things that I desired.  If I get rid of the negative, then He'll fill it with the positive things I want, right?  Not quit.
I've always wanted to be married...but what lil girl doesn't want that.  However, as I'm grown up, I've gone back and forth between wanting a family.  There for a while, I swore I'd never have kids.  It would be me and my man spoiling all our nieces and nephews :)
But...in the past 9 months or so, I've fallen in love w the idea of a family, thanks in part to my dear friends the Plasters.  The have 4 boys under the age of 11 and wow!  what a family.  Amanda is a stay at home mom working her Mary Kay business!  Brandon works full time and sings in a quartet.  Those boys are such a hand full, but I love being over there.  I told Amanda the other day, that if I wasn't doing Mary Kay, then I would want to be her nanny.  She sometimes calls me her wife, cuz I'm over there all the time helping out  :)  I see how she and Brandon work TOGETHER to make their home wonderful.  Brandon is Amanda's biggest fan as she's working into Mary Kay management and Amanda adores Brandon!!
To get back on track....a family.  My heart is slowing coming around again to wanting a family.  And because I want a family, I want to marry someone who wants family too.  As I was releasing toxic relationships, I expected God to fill that space with positive relationships.  I have let loneliness set in and that is far more toxic then the things I let go of.  Loneliness loves when we sink down real deep and start to feel sorry for ourselves.  He loves to remind of us what we don't have, not what we do.  His partner is Discontentment!
"What I have isn't enough"

"When will it be my turn"

"When will my happiness come"

"What's wrong with me?"

Comfort, Peace, and Contentment come along.  They are on my side, sent by my Father!!
"Look how blessed I am with family and friends who love me"

"God's timing is perfect and I'm just not ready for what He has in store"

"A person and things can't make me happy.  My joy comes from the Lord"  I choose to be happy!!

"There is nothing wrong with me.  God is continuing to work on me, to perfect His work"

My friend Amanda has been telling me about standing tall for the Lord and the work He's doing in her life.  And not to kneel before fear or guilt, etc.  What an inspiration she is to me!!