Freedom

I have recently been attending a new church with my dear friend Amanda and her family.  This past Sunday we sang about freedom and Pastor said we cannot truely appreciate freedom
until we've been in bondage,
until we've been tied up,
until we've been behind bars.

I realized that I've been in bondage to and behind the bars of my future.  This was a big thing for me to realize.  Anyone that knows me knows that I am a self-sufficient, independent girl who can make it on her own.  I want to control things, including my future.  And while thats true, I sure can't see the future nor am I sure I want to see it.  If I saw into my future, what would I change about today?  Would I change today or would I let today be today, hoping to learn something that will impact my future?

The future has started to bother me a lil bit lately. Especially when it comes to my husband.  I believe he is out there, I know my parents and others who love me pray for him.  I pray for him.  But I dont know who he is and that worries me a bit.  I like to have a plan and know how things are gona work out.

My friend Amanda just told me that worrying about my future is living in fear.  But that God's got it all under control.  Again, a friend who loves me and will tell me the truth, even when i don't want to hear it :)  thanks girl!  You truely are a blessing!!